For each forgotten kiss
For all the memories
For all the times a look
Said all we had to say
You played your part so well
A modern Romeo
You came on Cupid's wings
And then you flew away
When you touched my face
When you called my name
I burned with desire
When you touched my face
When you called my name
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain
For every sleepless night
Forever in your arms
For every hour spent
Lost in the reverie
You broke your promises
No shame and no regrets
You burned the bridges too
An endless mystery
When you touched my face
So beautiful
When you called my name
My name..
I burned with desire
When you touched my face
So beautiful
When you called my name
My name..
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain
When you touched my face
So beautiful
When you called my name
My name..
I burned with desire
When you touched my face
When you called my name
I burned with desire
But you left me in the rain I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, i know this is love
But if i tell the world, I'll never say enough
Cause it was not said to you
And thats exactly what i need to do if I'd end up with you
Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even If i knew my place
should i leave it there?
Should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere?
I'd build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it
-Adele-
ini tulisan temen gw yg ternyata adalah sodara gw, gw suka bgt tulisan dia, makanya gw post dsini..for all the gloomy girls that i know..yes you! haha
emang bener, God's way is still the best way
I love this situation.
Sabtu malem, ujan gede, ada di kamar ‘red-zone’ gw. Klo umumnya, ujan gede, orang-orang lain nutup jendela & pintu kamarnya., gw disini malah ngbuka gede-gede jendela kamar gw. Nikmatin dinginnya udara malam hujan, kena beberapa tetes ujan yang dateng dari jendela kamar yang sengaja gw buka. Agak serem sama petirnya seh.. tapi tetep ga ngurangin sedikitpun kenikmatan yang gw rasain sekarang. Seharian sengaja matiin smua handphone *padahal cuma punya 2 juga hp’nya*. Ga beredar di dunia maya. No facebook – no ym – no googling. Weekend tanpa gangguan dari luar. Enjoying my own-weekend. Bangun siang. Nyalon *my most favorite activities*. Trus, berdiam diri dikamar. Ditemenin sama ‘sleep all day’nya Jason mraz. Doing nothing (padahal skripsi dah harus cepet2 dikerjain). Wondering..
Being a girl (in a process of being a woman) in the age of twenty something. . dengan berbagai konflik yang ada. The love story. Dunia kerja a.k.a nasib karyawan. Socialization. Experiencing a-quarter-life-crisis. Proses mencari jati diri yang malah nemuin banyak problem in our daily life. Mencari tau apa yang bener-bener lo mau. Kehidupan seperti apa yang pengen lo jalanin 20 tahun mendatang. Its great. Its fun. Bukan lagi anak sma yang semuanya dibawah aturan bokap-nyokap. Bebas nentuin pilihan sendiri. Contoh kecilnya, klo dulu jaman sma, lo pengen beli baju, lo harus negotiate sama nyokap yang dengan prinsip ekonomis’nya selalu lebih milih baju yang paling murah. Nyokap ga peduli klo baju itu padahal its-so-last-year, yang penting paling murah. Trus, ga suka belanja di mall, karena kebiasaan nyokap-nyokap yang lebih suka perang harga sm penjual di pasar a.k.a pake ‘nawar’. Sedangkan kalo blanja di mall udah harga pas. Klo udah kepaksa bgt belanja di mall, nyokap tetep usaha dengan bilang ke SPGnya: “ini diskon ga mba? Yang diskon yang mana yaa?”
Hahaha.. I love my mom soo damn much.
Sekarang, lo *all d girls in my age* bisa bebas beli baju semau lo karena udah punya penghasilan sendiri. Kadang suka kepalang napsu beli ini-itu-ini-itu sebagai reward untuk diri sendiri yang kerja 5 hari dalam seminggu. Palingan seh, akhir bulan ngepot-ngepot buat bertahan hidup karena napsu shopping abis gajian. *kayaknya yang baca ini banyak yang ngedumel: “akhir bulan? Ga nyampe tgl 20an kali, tengah bulan juga udah merana” hahaha…* beruntunglah lo-lo smua yang punya good financial management. Karena, kebanyakan orang-orang disekitar gw *termasuk gw sendiri ;p* mengalami ritual tengah bulan yang sama. (jangan senyum-senyum sendiri yaa acid, rya, dv, mona, itha, femmy, mila, anty, dll..dll…ooops, keceplosan deh. huehehe).
Enough about financial statement. Karena klo diomongin, emang ga abis-abis. Gali-lobang-tutup-lobang.
Now about love story..
Pernah ga seh lo punya seseorang yang jadi obsesi lo? Seseorang yang meng-inspire lo. Segala sesuatu yang dya suka. Lo jadi ikut-ikutan suka. And at the time u got him, lo baru menyadari klo dya ga se-perfect yang lo pikir. He’s nothing like brad pitt, not as charming as George Clooney, not as cool as hmm..siapa tuh pemainnya twilight? Whoever, he’s not all that u think he is.
Gw pernah. Been there-done that. Call me silly, but.. knowing he’s not perfect after all malah bikin gw mikir klo he’s even more perfect than b4.
I realize that seeing someone like that doesn’t come by itself. It comes with love.
Saat lo dah ga peduli lagi sama omongan orang lain. Saat lo ga lagi butuh pendapat orang lain di sekitar lo yang masih waras *smua orang yang jatuh cinta emang ga ada yang waras, rite?* Saat lo cuma ngikutin kata hati lo sendiri. It’s a gorgeous feeling. Tapi, kalo diulik-ulik lagi, sebenernya ada yang salah dalam hubungan lo. Tapi lo tetep keukeuh & gelap mata. Emang udah kodratnya manusia lebih suka ngliat yang indah-indah. Its like putting out your own eyes in order not to see the bad things in life..
When u feel that u’re too in love to let it go
But, u’ll never know if you never try
Just that u’re worth..
Tapi ada yang namanya enough is enough.
Saat lo udah berusaha yang terbaik, memberikan yang terbaik, ngelupain ego lo sendiri demi bertahan, but still comes failure. Its d time for u 2 give up. Melepaskan bukan berarti kalah. Mungkin emang bukan lo yang terbaik untuk dya. Dan dy pun juga bukan yang terbaik untuk lo. Ga selalu apa yang lo mau itu yang terbaik untuk lo. Ga slamanya semua yang lo pengen harus slalu lo dapetin. Butuh jiwa yang besar untuk nerima keadaan ini. In our age, we learn to be wise to accept this kind of path.
When u love s1, but it goes to waste, could it be worse?
Kalo kata Glenn Fredly, “segala sesuatu terjadi karena memang harus terjadi dan terjadi tepat pada waktunya”
Well, that’s life anyway. U like it or not but u better like it. U want it or not but u better want it.
At first, I felt disappointed. Kecewa karena ga sesuai yang gw harapkan. I also felt afraid. But then I realize that I’m strong enough to face it. To live with it.
Didalam ketakutan tersimpan keberanian sejati. Saat lo berjuang melawan ketakutan lo dengan menghadapi masalah yang lo punya, itu nunjukin klo lo emang punya keberanian untuk ga lari dari masalah apapun yang ada di depan lo.
After all, semua yang lo rasain & lo hadapin akan mendewasakan lo & membentuk karakter diri lo sendiri. Karena hidup adalah proses belajar seumur hidup.
Klo kata Fergie.. Big girls don’t cry – my favorite quote today.
Well, its great being twenty something, isn’t it?
..meidi in her mid twenty.. Your life is defined by its opportunities... even the ones you miss. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went. You could swear, curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Benjamin: I was thinking how nothing lasts, and what a shame that is. Daisy: Some things last.
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For what it's worth: It's never too late, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have strength to start all over again.
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And I think, right there and then, she realized none of us is perfect forever. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us? ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- You never know what’s coming for you. - The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - My name is Richard. So what else do you need to know? Stuff about my family, or where I'm from? None of that matters. Not once you cross the ocean and cut yourself loose, looking for something more beautiful, something more exciting and yes, I admit, something more dangerous.
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I still believe in paradise. But now at least I know it's not some place you can look for, 'cause it's not where you go. It's how you feel for a moment in your life when you're a part of something, and if you find that moment... it lasts forever...
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Trust me, it's paradise. This is where the hungry come to feed. For mine is a generation that circles the globe and searches for something we haven't tried before. So never refuse an invitation, never resist the unfamiliar, never fail to be polite and never outstay the welcome. Just keep your mind open and suck in the experience. And if it hurts, you know what? It's probably worth it.
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The only downer is, everyone's got the same idea. We all travel thousands of miles just to watch TV and check in to somewhere with all the comforts of home, and you gotta ask yourself, what is the point of that?
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When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn't need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that's just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it's just what you've been searching for all these years.
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You hope, and you dream. But you never believe that something's gonna happen for you. Not like it does in the movies. And when it actually does, you want it to feel different, more visceral, more real. I was waiting for it to hit me, but it just wouldn't happen.
-The Beach-
I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt.
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Daydream delusion, limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes
I'm a delusion angel
I'm a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don't want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we're going
Lodged in life
Like branches in a river
Flowing downstream
Caught in the current
I carry you
You'll carry me
That's how it could be
Don't you know me?
Don't you know me by now?
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This friend of mine had a kid, and it was a home birth, so he was there helping out and everything. And he said at that profound moment of birth, he was watching this child, experiencing life for the first time, I mean, trying to take its first breath... all he could think about was that he was looking at something that was gonna die someday. He just couldn't get it out of his head. And I think that's so true, I mean, all-- everything is so finite. But don't you think that that's what, makes our time, at specific moments, so important? Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.
This blog inspired from a pop-up question from a really good friend of mine yesterday night in a slow mo kinda situation.
“Butterfly effect tu apa sih?”, tanya dia. Karna gw juga dalam slow mo dan ga ngeh apa2, jadi gw blg ohh itu ada artinya yaa? Gw kira cuma film dan akhirnya blabbing ga jelas, eh tau2 ko ngomongin doraemon dan nobita dengan mesin waktunya dan membuat gw bertanya, “skarang kan udah tahun 2008 ? Ko doraemon gada ya?” Dia jg bego nanggepin gw dan jawab, “Emang doraemon tahun 2008? Bukannya tahun 2050an gt?”. Trs gw dengan gilanya jawab, “Kan doraemon punya mesin waktu, kenapa dia ga dateng ke tahun ini terus nolongin gw?” Eh gw masih ditanggepin loh dgn, “Karna shelly blom butuh doraemon.” And I was like, Mmmkaay.. Tet-tooot..Capeee deeh dengan W-talking..hahahhaa
Anywaaaay, butterfly effect frase yg dalem artinya dan menurut gw keren. Munkin karna mixed-up ma filmnya yang keren kali ya? Karna gw suka endingnya yang ada beberapa versi dan karma film ini psychological thriller yang adalah favorit gw.
Kalau secara teori, arti dari butterfly effects itu adalah Fenomena ini sistem yang ketergantungannya sangat peka terhadap kondisi awal. Hanya sedikit perubahan pada kondisi awal, dapat mengubah secara drastis kelakuan sistem pada jangka panjang. (wiki said much. Hehe!) Contohnya lo telat bangun 5 menit ke kantor (which is ga gw banget untuk telat 5 menit), gara2 CUMA telat 5 menit, hidup lo bisa brantakan sharian,kaya:
jalanan pagi tambah sumpek gara2 lampu merah mati yang harusnya lo ga ngalamin klo ga telat bangun 5 menit. BUKAN, lo ga telat 5 menit nyampe kantor, tapi munkin stngah jam atau brapa lah itu. Bos lo dah dateng duluan ke kantor dan dia mesti meeting ma client dan ngambek sharian ma lo. Iya, lo pasti ikutan BT dgn muka ngambeknya dia yg pngen lo toyor dari blakang trs kabur. Hahhaha
Atau gara2 CUMA menforward imel isu2 sampah tentang bank yang mau di likuiditas, eh jadi masuk penjara dan gara2 itu, 1 kantor dapet imel “Forwarding E-Mails - It Could Be Against The Law” dari orang IT.
Wauw, smua yang kita lakuin bisa berimbas ke khidupan kita sendiri, orang lain, atau orang banyak bahkan ke alam.
Pesan Moral: Jangan aneh2 kali ya kalau emang mau bener, tapi klo mau hidupnya agak sedikit hidup ya jalanin aja, everything happens for a reason, yes? (It will be the next topic) Just consider it as a one fine day! Look who's speaking! Haha! nusa penida asiiik! paket yg gw ambil lumayan, dapet: hotel transfer pp pp naik cruise dari benoa semi submarine yg tp jendela nya udah rada burem mampir ke desa toya pakeh ngeliat sabung ayam ma ada pasar kecil makan siang yg enaaaak deh di atas laut gitu water slide yg langsung terjun ke laut ada ocean spa sgala sih, cm gw ga pake, dingiiin jatohin diri dari banana boat snorkling, yg sayangnya ikannya pada lg ga kumpul krn arus lg kenceng bgt dan airnya lg dingin, brrr dpt coffee break dan cemilan gw kena paye koral deeeeh..huhuhu, gw pngen water slide lg ga bs soalnya gw mendadak kedinginan parah gara2 paye koral. huhuhu kurang puas sih, abis durasinya sebentar bgt dan gw dah ga kuat kena paye koral. huhu pengen water slide lagiiii!!! nusa penida kereeeeen!
enaknya naik waterslide langsung nyebur lauuut
tapi kena paye koral sialan!
lebih nyengat dari ubur2
bangke
sayang ga bawa digicam
gebleg!
terhitung tgl 13 agustus 2008 aku resmi jadi pengangguran! hahahhahahhaaa
ada lowongan kerja buat sekretaris? hiihihihi
Written by george fenton, babyface, robert kraft (1999)
Performed by joy enriquez
Can not touch
Can not hold
Can not be together
Can not love
Can not kiss
Can not have each other
Must be strong, and we must let go
Can not say what our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
Can not dream
Can not share
Sweet and tender moments
Can not feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over
Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say, what we've known all along Sebab
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Akibat
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piss out!
pagi pagi dah kebangun di hari pertama kerja setelah cuti bersama Idul Fitri 2007. Mata dah on, tp badan masi aja off. Jadilah males2an di atas tmpat tidur dulu. aaahhh jd telat kantor deh gw! grasak grusuk santai, sampailah di kantor, eh tau2 gerbang depan ditutup. eh knapa? masa iya kantor gw ada peraturan baru yang nutup gerbang buat karyawan yang telat? ga mungkin lah ya? masa kantor gw masi tutup? itu lagi! ngarep! mudah2an gerbang samping ga ditutup, mudah2an bukan cuma gerbang di seberang sana yang dibuka. eh gerbang samping kbuka. eh, taunya ada halal bihalal karyawan kantor. pantes ada tenda-tenda biru... yeeeehhh..kiraiin apeee? pagi pagi gw denger ada bunyi bunyi di sekitar monas. bunyinya kaya gini: durumdum durumdum..eh tunggu deh, bukan gitu bunyinya, bntar bntar, ohhh trnyata ndang ndang ndang duutt..ndang ndang ndang duutt..brulang-ulang..ada apa niihhh rame-rame? hmmm..gataunya ada mudik bareng yang disponsorin salah satu minuman berenergi. pantesan yang ada di stasiun-stasiun ga serame dulu, pada mudik bareng gratis trnyata..katanya sih nanti ada 3.000 orang calon pmudik gratis ngumpul di monas. banyak juga yah? yeeehh kirain apeeee!! | |
